“It’s 3 AM, I must be lonely”

April 15, 2010 at 4:08 am (Life) (, , , , , )

It turns out that the 24 hour Emergency Crisis facility at the Mental Health Department only does hospitalization at 2:45 AM. There are no therapists or counselors there at that time. The security guard said, “How ya doin?” when I walked in and I barked a laugh in his face. “If I was well, would I be here at almost 3 in the morning?” Anyway, they sent me home, saying to come back at 8 AM for the walk-in clinic.

So I did what any normal person with mental illness would do…I came home and mowed the front yard. By the light of the street lamps. At 3 AM. Twice. That first time around just didn’t seem to get it all. I then spent 10 minutes staring at the yard across the street (Eddie’s), debating on whether or not I should mow it. I finally chose not to because it was bumpier than I wanted to deal with. I then drank about 32 oz. of orange juice.

People…….I’m not so sure I’m very stable.

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Mental Health

April 9, 2010 at 6:50 pm (film, Life) (, , , , , , , , , , )

This week my depression was upgraded from dysthymia to major depressive disorder. That doesn’t really do much to change my treatment, it just changes how much (more) the state is willing to help pay for said treatment. I won’t be able to get back on meds until I see a psychiatrist on May 14, however. That, my friends, sucks. All refills have run out and the mental health department (where I’ll be going) is backed up until May 14. That greatly saddens me, not just for myself, but for what that indicates about the mental health of my fellow citizens of Greensboro, NC. It saddens me because there just aren’t enough psychiatrists to go around.

This isn’t a sad blog post, however. Even though this has been a sort of rough week mentally (mainly due to financial woes…as always), I was also able to make this video. It was fun to write, fun to shoot, fun to edit, and very fun to watch. I’m not gonna lie, I’ve watched it like 8 times. It makes me laugh every time. They say to write for yourself and others will like it. I hope so, because I only know how to write for me. And I make me laugh 🙂

I don’t normally ask this, but if you like the video, could you give it a thumbs up if you visit the Youtube site? Also, please feel free to re-post the video or send the link to anyone you think might enjoy it or need a laugh. Like I told my friend on Twitter the other day, I’m here to bring laughter.

I’d like to leave you with this: just like weather isn’t the same thing as climate, being depressed doesn’t mean you aren’t happy.

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